churches are emaciated

as stated in some earlier posts, i’m writing a paper on desiderius erasmus and his role in the reformation of the church. what i am realizing is how emaciated the church is, well, i’m realizing more of why the church is so emaciated. don’t get me wrong. there are many reasons…but, i happen to be fixated on monasticism, and therefore one of my greatest sorrows this semester in the history of christianity II has been to read about the experiences the reformers had with monasticism. the reason for this sorrow is that their bad experiences with monasticism added to the fact that you likely will not find any monastic groups outside of the roman catholic or episcopal churches. i grieve the loss of monasticism in protestant and evangelical churches. this loss is a reason that the church is emaciated. i don’t yet know if i want to become roman catholic or not in order to become a nun. i don’t believe i do, but, at the same time, i want to be involved in the monastic life, and luther and erasmus did not leave me many choices. back to my paper, i think.